What have i done wrong, I am almost certain I have forgotten something, Missed something important.
Could it be? hard to know for sure, and I need to be sure, because if i’m wrong it could destroy my whole world. The risk is so great that I obsess and debate over and over and over. Nobody ever tells you how hard it is to choose to take the risk or not, Knowing full well it could cost you everything.
Everything that matters, it’s both necessary and difficult, How can you decide when the action itself could cause the very thing you dread so much, but without action their can be no reaction.
I don’t give up easily, this much is true, but the fear of losing holds me back, losing is not an option, i won’t survive without it, Yet i stand frozen in place unable to act, as if time is frozen in place, and yet. Everything keeps moving surrounding, closing in, it feels like if i do nothing i will still loose anyway.